This morning at 06.02am precisely my whole existence was shattered and my life seemed to be over. I had been listening to the news and what I heard broke my heart.

It was a massive story (to me) and one that would upset my whole day. The local newsreader had just confirmed that 'ROBBIE WILLIAMS' had proposed to his girlfriend Ayda Field live on the Australian radio station 2Day FM and worse still she had accepted.

Okay, I realise that to many people this news story isn't of huge importance. There haven't been any huge disasters anywhere, nobody has died and everybody was happy. Well everybody but me.

In my house it has always been a standing joke that should Robbie take a shine to me, I would be out of here, gone in a flash, with no thought to my hubby and kids.

Well, they always thought I was joking, but there is just something about Robbie that really rocks my boat. It would seem that Ayda has something I don't - probably beauty, a fabulous figure and more importantly she now has ROBBIE.

It was amusing because when my youngest heard the news, she laughed and said 'bad luck mum, but Robbie is now engaged'. Even my son, who I don't normally hear a peep out of until midday, managed to wind me up about the whole situation.

How can it be funny to wind somebody up who has obviously had their heart broken. My family will be suffering this weekend for their cruelty.

Who is now going to put a smile on my face every morning, when I take a peek at his picture on the calendar, who can I drool over when he is on the t.v? What is a girl supposed to do?

During drastic times like these, the only solution I can think of is to book a holiday. I need somewhere, remote, hot and far away from my family. I might take a look at Caribbean Spa Holidays, or perhaps Spa Holidays in India. There is a huge choice of spa hotels, so to be honest I don't care where I end up.

All I want is tranquillity, quiet, calm, a bit of relaxation and I am thinking a hell of a lot of therapy to help me get over this very disturbing time in my life.


Robbie just doesn't realise what he is missing out on.